My time in France has provided me with some great benefits. On top of being very happily spending time with my family, there is the added challenge of helping out in looking after the young grandchildren, my grandson is four years old and my dear little granddaughter who is just six months old. This challenge has given me a different perspective on my constant antipsychotic medication side effects, namely my poor motion balance that have been troubling me all these years. I have learned to live with it and seldom complain about it. I have been worrying about holding my baby granddaughter in my arms, scared that if I lost my balance and can drop her, causing some serious harm to her. But now I am perfectly fine, totally confident in holding her, we can even dance together, with her in
my arms. Or holding her with just one arm. I have to be quite creative in order to bond with my grandson. I have managed to come up with a few great ideas and activities that we can have together. I'm very proud and pleased with what I have achieved .So I am now much less bothered by the medical side effects than ever before. Though I do understand that these irritating side effects can be with me forever. I believe that I can tolerate and accept them much better from now on. It is just like having a certain handicap, I just refuse to let it control my life and try to make the best out of it. My time in France has provided me with great benefits, especially in giving me the courage and determination to do things that I have thought are rather impossible. I sincerely hope that my positive spirit and right attitude, my wellness and overall improvement can persuade my psychiatrist that it is time to reduce my medication and lessen the terrible side effects.
中文版：在法國這段時間裡,我得到一些龐大的好處。除了能夠與家人一起渡過這非常快樂的時光外，還加上要幫助照顧我的孫兒們的挑戰。我的男孫是四歲了。而小孫女祗有六個月大。這個挑戰給予了
我一個對我精神病藥的副作用新的和應該是不同角度正確的觀念。我已學到去接受那折磨了我多年的行動失衡毛病；與及不再去常常訴苦了。我一直擔心我如何可以安全地抱上我的小孫女,我担心當我會失去平衡時跌倒而傷害到她！但是我現在已經信心十足,不單祗可以很穩定的用一隻手抱著她,更可以抱着她來一起跳舞。我和男孫在一起時,一定要非常有創想力來和他聯繫得好。我已經能夠想到很多有創意的念頭和活動去陪他一起玩耍。我為此感到很驕傲和開心,因此我現時對那精神病藥物帶來的副作用已經比從前沒有那麼困擾了。但我也明白到這些副作用是有可能纏着我一世的。我想我是可以比較好些去容忍和接受它們,就好像與一種殘廢為伴一樣,我祗須要拒絕去讓它來控制我,和盡我所能去適應令情況好些。我在法國的日子給予了我很龐大的好處,尤其是我獲得了勇氣和決心去做一些我以前會認為是沒有可能成功的事。我衷心地希望我那正確的意識,良好的感受和整體上的改進,會能夠說服我的精神病醫生去認為是時候去減輕或減少我的藥,而令我能夠承受少一點那些可怖的副作用。