When there is the tendency of me being forced into the hospital again I cannot plan for a trip to Hong Kong to visit my sick mother. This is important to me. I can’t even buy tickets for concerts or musicals just in case I’ll lose money again when I can’t go. I have already lost $9000 because I couldn’t go on the cruise I’d booked (this was the only treat I gave myself) because suddenly they put me under the Mental Health Act. The past two days I felt stress and anxiety, I got headaches thinking about this unresolved issue but luckily once I sat down watching tv or just resting, my brain relaxes itself. Last night I slept so well, I woke up feeling peace within me. It seems the stress and anxiety has gone, it seems. Life goes on despite what!